It's not exactly that I've lost someone (I've lost many people in my lifetime), but I am slowly losing someone, or rather two people, and it's very difficult. It's drawn out instead of all at once, and that is almost more difficult than a sudden death.
I have two grandmothers that I am very close with. One of them has end-stage emphysema and is very ill. I am worried she won't be around much longer. The other has Alzheimer's, which is almost worse in a way, because she is slowly turning into a complete stranger. I am so scared to call her, because there will come a day where she won't remember who I am, and that is so terrifying to me.
Ah, I'm trying not to dwell on this right now. Trying to focus on Trek.