Oh, so it's okay to insult people if you insult them all at once? If you're so against fanfiction - or just don't "get it" - why are you even here?
Earlier, you called fanfiction "a small box." Well, if you think about it, fanfic is just another genre. Any genre could be considered "a small box."
So you want to write a fantasy novel? Why does it have to be fantasy? Why put yourself in such a small box? Why limit your creativity so much? Does that make sense to you? Probably not, because it's ludicrous.
It's not "needy" to want something appreciated by its intended audience.