but this is going to effect your scores.
The grind is a natural component we all had to deal with, even if not in such a condensed fashion as you are.
When you see some fat fuck pushing/walking a bicycle up a hill, don't you just want to slow your car down and throw things at them?
You didn't do this for fun.
I see your endeavor hear as 60 percent science experiment and 40 percent tortureporn selfmutilation.
You have to get over the hump.
Break though the wall.
If you take a year or two off now, three years off...
There's going to be no fricking sense of reward when you spit on your TV set as the credits roll on Endgame.
I don't mean to be rude (this time) but you were delusional if you thought that this was going to be an enjoyable experience.
The first guy to do a marathon in ancient Greece, his heart blew up.
What you should notice, that although it's harder to find highs from the good episodes, it also harder to find lows with the bad episodes because you have engineered a workspce in your brain to proccess this porogramming with such efficiencey, it doesn't even touch the sides.
Like a champion gold medal winning hotdog eater.
Remember at the beginning of the thread when I used the word "callused" and you all thought I was mad?
It's like you have 3/4's of a tattoo!
Ihe chinese symbol for "I can't be arsed!"
You can doooooooooo it.
You can dooooooooo it alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll night long.