Well that's fine Admiralscreed, I certainly know that my opinions of episodes changed from the first time I saw them too! I hated "Fair Trade" until a rewatch and actually remembering thinking "Coda" was ok until a rewatch, haha.
When I came to this ship I resented
the fact that Captain Janeway was responsible for our being stranded here in the Delta Quadrant. I didn't
think that she made the right decision and I certainly didn't
want to serve under her command. In the beginning I fought
her. Even when she made me Chief Engineer I didn't trust
her reasons. I kept looking for a hidden agenda. I actually believed that she'd set me up to fail. Well, I couldn't have been more wrong. She saw, she saw something in me that I didn't see. She saw a worthwhile person where I saw a lost and hostile misfit, and because she had faith in me
I began to have faith in myself. And when she died, the first thing I thought was that I couldn't
do this without her. That I needed her too badly - her strength and her compassion. But then I realized that the gift
that she gave me, and gave a lot of us here, was the knowledge that we are better and stronger
than we think. I wish I had said these things to her, I wish I'd taken the time.
Ok you seriously don't think its incredibly egotistical
that Janeway is just assuming that she's had this huge positive impact on B'Ellana and changed her life? Like if I made up a memorial service in my mind where everyone I know talks about how amazing I was and how much I improved their lives...that's not pretty.
Could the woman BE any more full of herself?
Its not egotistical to see the impact you've had on another person. Its egotistical to see only yourself when you look at your life.
Its easy to dismiss Janeway's relationship with B'Elanna when you compare it to Kes or to Seven, and yet her effect was just as telling upon B'Elanna as we can see from "Unimatrix Zero":
Can't we find another Borg ship? A sphere, maybe? Something less imposing?
I rechecked long-range sensors. There's nothing.
This is our target. You'll keep a transporter lock on me. Once I make it to the central plexus and release the virus, you can beam me back.
In how many pieces? It's ridiculous.
Agreed. I should go. I'm the only one with experience.
You're our only connection to Unimatrix Zero. You're needed here. It was my decision to help these people. This is my responsibility.
Starfleet Tactical Directive thirty six. The Captain will not engage a hostile force without the protection of a Security Officer. The probability of success is greater if there are two of us.
TORRES: Make that three. If you're going to pull this off you'll need an Engineer in there.
TORRES: Tactical directive thirty six A.
(Aghast!)There is no
directive thirty six A.
TORRES: There is now.
And if you need something more BLATANT than that... just watch season 6's "Barge of the Dead"...
You know, you're just like her.
My mother. You're as dedicated to Starfleet principles as she was to Klingon honour. I know that we haven't always seen eye to eye, but despite our differences you helped me become a good officer and I'd like to think that you're proud of me for it.
My mother never had the chance to be proud of me. I'd like her to know me the way you do. I don't want her to die thinking of me as a disgrace. You have to let me do this.
...you know, the ep where her Mother is dressed in the uniform of a Starship Captain for the last two scenes and B'Elanna ends up in someone's (NOT Tom's) arms when she comes out of her coma.