Well that's fine Admiralscreed, I certainly know that my opinions of episodes changed from the first time I saw them too! I hated "Fair Trade" until a rewatch and actually remembering thinking "Coda" was ok until a rewatch, haha.
When I came to this ship I resented
the fact that Captain Janeway was responsible for our being stranded here in the Delta Quadrant. I didn't
think that she made the right decision and I certainly didn't
want to serve under her command. In the beginning I fought
her. Even when she made me Chief Engineer I didn't trust
her reasons. I kept looking for a hidden agenda. I actually believed that she'd set me up to fail. Well, I couldn't have been more wrong. She saw, she saw something in me that I didn't see. She saw a worthwhile person where I saw a lost and hostile misfit, and because she had faith in me
I began to have faith in myself. And when she died, the first thing I thought was that I couldn't
do this without her. That I needed her too badly - her strength and her compassion. But then I realized that the gift
that she gave me, and gave a lot of us here, was the knowledge that we are better and stronger
than we think. I wish I had said these things to her, I wish I'd taken the time.
Ok you seriously don't think its incredibly egotistical that Janeway is just assuming that she's had this huge positive impact on B'Ellana and changed her life? Like if I made up a memorial service in my mind where everyone I know talks about how amazing I was and how much I improved their lives...that's not pretty.
Could the woman BE any more full of herself?